at the end of each day,

all i've got is you... and God.

thank you for being my rock.

dear God,

i'm scared for tomorrow. really, really freakin' scared. as i told a friend i think im going to get sick just thinking about that thing tomorrow. You know how much i want it because that would be my ticket to "freedom" so to speak. just help me get through it with flying colors...uhm, no... just help me get through it without making a fool out of myself.

i'm going there blind but with complete faith in You. beacuse i know that You will be the ultimate judge on what direction my life should take. but God, just please give me enough courage and self-confidence for it. please.

amen.

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i'm not perfect...like the rest of the world.

so, deal with it.

starting 2007 on a sour note

you thought wedding announcements should be a reason for celebration especially from people you think are very close to your heart. but certain people wouldn't react the way you want them to because the cat is out of the bag. they never really liked you. and since this ain't a perfect world and a perfect life, you just have to deal with it.

you are scared enough starting a new chapter in life and it doesn't help when people tell you to do things which is completely different from your faith. there are certain things that can't be compromised. over your dead body as you would put it.

tougher times are still to come. as the days and months pass by, the pressure will continue to build up. the only thing to do is hang on and believe that you can surpass it. remember that he loves you so much and nothing will change it.

as he assured you, by hook or by crook a wedding will take place in september 2007... or earlier.