*sigh* with puppy eyes

i saw crush at eastwood last night. yes, the crush i have devoted a few blog entries to. i was ecstatic to finally see him in the flesh. to my excitement, i tugged edward's shirt (with matching maraming hampas sa balikat) while saying the name of crush. the entire starbucks store probably heard me too. but i didnt care because i was too giddy and busy staring at crush as he passed by. edward even suggested that we follow crush so i could have my picture taken with him. i said no because i got so shy at the idea. it's one of the rare times i get shy. hahaha. he looked really cute and charming.

seeing him was like taking uppers last night. i was way too hyper, kulit and talkative. i was so happy of the thought of just seeing him there. i even had trouble sleeping. it's fun to have a crush and the feeling it gives you (knots in your stomach & all). and the best part of it is, i can tell my (soon-to-be) husband all about it. :D

i'm looking forward to the next time i see crush. and i hope that i won't be that shy anymore. ;)

better late than never

i've been tagged last month to share seven quirks or random things about myself. but i have been busy and lazy at the same time thus the late entry. so here goes the seven things about me. bow!

1. every time i have tortillos/chips as a snack, i dip it in my soda first before i eat it. it's like dipping pandesal in your coffee. this "habit" was picked up by my younger sisters too.


2. i always bite the drinking straw... unconsciously! any freudian explanation? :)


3. i am not (and never was) a demanding nor a jealous girlfriend. it's just not really my style. you can even ask my exes and edward on this. hehehe. edward said that i'm not demanding because i'm very independent. and for the jealous part, i just know what my worth is and know how to keep my man. that is real girl power for you! :D


4. i have the "talent" of listening to other people's conversations even if i'm busy doing my own thing (i.e. chatting away with my companion/s). edward told me that i can be a spy or something and maybe in the future, we can cash in some moolah from this "talent."


5. i have two dream jobs: a personal shopper & a housewife!


6. some of you already know this: i'm very, very ticklish (particularly my back, knees and feet) . i couldn't have a decent foot scrub/spa or any massage. i'm so ticklish that it gets irritating and frustrating! grr!


7. i don't know how to scream/shriek like a girl. you know, the high-pitched shrill sound girls make when they are excited, frustrated or angry. i can't do that ever since i was little.

rekindling a flame

it's uaap season again.

i get to see crush...

twice a week for 3 months.

sigh! si crush!

*dreamy eyes*

the drama princess is a year older

today marks my 28th year of existence in the world.

today is officially my last birthday in singlehood.

and today will be a blast! :D

this is not being demanding & selfish

when you spare few minutes for me, drop everything else and focus on me... and just me. those few minutes are supposed to be mine and mine alone so please give it to me 100%. because i really get offended when you don't.

walang atrasan na to!

so far, this is our biggest expenditure for the wedding. and probably the only big expenditure will have since edward and i are having a small, intimate civil wedding. don't they look amazing?? i can't stop staring at them. it's a replica of the tiffany & co. celebration ring i'm dreaming of.

we can't wait for the big day and start wearing this 24/7. a few more months left! konti tiis na lang as edward would say. :D

craving

i want some spicy tuyo from cafe bola partnered with big chill's avocado bliss! mmmmm.... yummy!!!

a really bad day

(an incoherent post)

i don't like disappointing people and, most especially, disappointing myself. i keep replaying everything in my head. i probably should have done this, should have done that to save it. but sometimes there are things beyond your control... no matter how exprienced you are in such department.

if i am to be blamed for this, i'll accept it. because i probably deserve it. and i hate myself right now. i feel that it's somehow my fault that it was lost. i know i have given it my best but i guess, my best wasn't good enough for them. but seriously, i don't know what more i could have done. i have given it my all.

i think it's also unfair to be judged solely on that "mishap" considering the rest of the things were done with flying colors. there's nothing else we can do. that's how they do things at the other side of the fence. we just have to accept it and face reality. and i don't really feel good about it.

highlight of the week

getting a press release approved by a specific government agency after 25 years?!!!!!? the 25 years is stretching it a bit but for all of you who have experienced the bureaucracy would know what i mean.

the thing is, i couldn't assert myself too much or pressure them to have the story approved. because i don't want to piss them off and delay the approval longer. it also doesn't help if they want to work in a turtle's pace. plus, the government agency is a client of my client and i don't want to get the ire of my client.

so for the last 2-3 weeks, i had to be really patient and nice to the said government agency. and yesterday, they finally decided to approve the story just in the nick of time. thus, making my client really happy.

if my client is happy, then i'm happy.

wedding vow to beat

from Grey's Anatomy Season 3 finale

PRESTON: "Cristina, I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there, in sickness and in health. I could say till death do us part. But I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I am steady. I'm a heart man. Take 'em apart, put 'em back together, hold them in my hands. So this, I am sure. You are my partner. My lover. My very best friend. My heart. My heart beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you... me."

letting out some steam

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final four stage is set!

march madness isn't called as such for nothing. there are no "cinderellas" this year because all four teams deserve to be in the semis. march madness is really going to end with a bang! coz the big boys are coming out to play...

ohio state vs. georgetown

florida vs. ucla

now, place your bets... see how tough guys play with finesse ... and watch college ball at its finest.

in a previous lifetime...

rachael yamagata probably had me in mind when she wrote this line in her song, "meet me by the water":

please don't leave me standing with my heart in my hand. i can't last here. i'm breaking down.

hehehe. :)

to my "person"

remember that bumpy roads lead to very smooth highways and exciting joyrides. and may it be bumpy road or smooth highway, i will be your co-pilot or even the backseat driver that you need. i can even take the steering wheel and drive for you (yun nga lang wala akong driver's license. hehehe).

at hindi lang si san miguel beer ang kakampi mo. the "j" friend club mandaluyong chapter will always be here for you. even if you are "drugs" or not. hahaha.

soon enough, everything will be ok and you will be back to your old self. may it be the shiny happy person or your dark cynical self. either way, you are my person... and i am your person.

i love you... and remember that anything that doesn't kill you, makes you a better person.

*photo courtesy of fotosearch.com

summer '07

it's starting to feel like i'm inside a sauna in my room at night. this is one sure sign that summer is just around the corner. it's time to rummage my closet and bring out the bikinis! it's time to hit the beach and have some fun in the sun. and it's time to have that perfect tan!

and just maybe, it's about time i learn how to swim! ;)

THE (wedding/theme) SONG

"Feels Like Home"

by: Chantal Kreviazuk (Dawson's Creek soundtrack)

Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

at the end of each day,

all i've got is you... and God.

thank you for being my rock.

dear God,

i'm scared for tomorrow. really, really freakin' scared. as i told a friend i think im going to get sick just thinking about that thing tomorrow. You know how much i want it because that would be my ticket to "freedom" so to speak. just help me get through it with flying colors...uhm, no... just help me get through it without making a fool out of myself.

i'm going there blind but with complete faith in You. beacuse i know that You will be the ultimate judge on what direction my life should take. but God, just please give me enough courage and self-confidence for it. please.

amen.

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i'm not perfect...like the rest of the world.

so, deal with it.

starting 2007 on a sour note

you thought wedding announcements should be a reason for celebration especially from people you think are very close to your heart. but certain people wouldn't react the way you want them to because the cat is out of the bag. they never really liked you. and since this ain't a perfect world and a perfect life, you just have to deal with it.

you are scared enough starting a new chapter in life and it doesn't help when people tell you to do things which is completely different from your faith. there are certain things that can't be compromised. over your dead body as you would put it.

tougher times are still to come. as the days and months pass by, the pressure will continue to build up. the only thing to do is hang on and believe that you can surpass it. remember that he loves you so much and nothing will change it.

as he assured you, by hook or by crook a wedding will take place in september 2007... or earlier.