this is the girl in me blabbing

a few days back a good friend of mine blogged about her current struggle of losing some weight after giving birth. she is putting all her effort these days to be able to wear size Small again. of course, i am one of those who supports her. i know that she will be able to do it especially when she puts her mind into it.

now it's my turn to do the blogging in wanting to lose some weight. NO! i didn't give birth recently but it was more of pigging out a lot lately. you see, over the summer i was able to lose 8 pounds or so that made me so giddy. i was able to wear my old skimpy jeans which were getting dusty in my closet, buy my fave summer, "slutty" (no pun intended) tees and fit perfectly in my two-piece bikinis. let's just say that over the summer i was really able to flaunt it without the hang-ups. ;-)

it's just been two months since summer and he noticed that some fat is starting to show under my chin. meaning, i was starting to have a second chin. he even apologized for pointing it out since he knew what i felt about gaining weight. i got alarmed and was already pressing the panic button in my head. if i don't do something about it soon, i will not be able to wear all those uber sexy and comfy clothes. and i don't like that. i don't want to go back to feeling a bit insecure about my weight and physical looks.

don't get me wrong, i DON'T want to be model skinny. i don't even starve myself or exhaust myself from all the exercise. i just want to maintain my current weight because this the ideal weight for my height. plus, this is the body built i want. i get to wear any kind of clothing i want (ok, not everything i want. because he has to approve what i'm wearing). plus, it really adds to my self-confidence. i feel good and look good.

so now, i am TRYING to start dieting. TRYING being the operative word. i'm going back to avoiding my favorite "unhealthy" food like chocolates, ice cream, cakes and soda. i am also strictly enforcing my 1 cup of rice per meal rule. this will be tough for me especially avoiding all those mouth-watering sweets. and i love eating really. but i know he will be there to help me out and control my urge to eat all those "unhealthy" food.

i told him last night that i should have a good motivation for maintaining my current weight and get rid of that extra chin. he had this idea on what my motivation should be. i laughed at his idea hysterically. but he was dead serious. if i don't get rid of my extra chin and maintain my current weight, he will do something as my "punishment." and because i don't like the "punishment" i have to do everything in my power to lose some weight.

*photos courtesy of yahoo images

seriously?!

in one of the episodes of grey's anatomy season 2, there was this scene where izzie and meredith (after one of their not-so-good days) goes to george's room. there's was only one word uttered throughout the scene but really explained their crappy day. and now, it's my turn...

seriously! SERIOUSLY?! seriously?! SERIOUSLY!!!

grr!!!

a thought long overdue

isn't it ironic... the people you think of running to when hell breaks loose, are sometimes the same people who want to run away from you.

tv marathon

i spent my weekend on the couch watching the season 2 of grey's anatomy. and here are the things going through my head while watching:

1. there is such a thing as an "emotional affair?!" i didn't know that was possible. i mean, having an affair emotionally but not sexually. hmm...

2. macsteamy is waaaayyyy cuter & hotter than macdreamy!

3. crisitina yang reminds me so much of ling (sp?) from ally mcbeal.

4. burke is adorable in a different way. he loves cristina so much for crying out loud. and cristina is not easy to love.

5. alex karev reminds me of this one guy in my life. hahaha. he's the misunderstood one. he just has a certain way of dealing with his emotions.

6. denny's character and personality is so charming. he makes subtle sexual comments at izzie but you wouldn't call him an ass. he's still cute and charming.

7. izzie is very vulnerable. really vulnerable. she's more of a heart person than a thinking person.

8. addison shephered face looks so perfect. she's like a barbie doll but not blonde.

9. macsteamy is really hot! ( i said that already, right?)

10. a common line in season 2 and said in different ways. "life is too damn short to follow those stupid rules..."

11. bailey pretends she doesn't care but she loves her "suck-up interns."

12. when ____ died, i cried a river. i was thinking that i was _____ who did everything and risked his/her dream for this one person just to find out that it was not enough to save him/her. sigh!

13. will meredith ever learn?! she can be stupid.

14. george is kind person and kinda cute in a non-conventional way.

15. seriously? seriously! SERIOUSLY?!

16. can't wait for season 3 to begin. and, macsteamy is really hot! hahaha!

when it rains

it really pours...

the li'l drama princess is definitely here

blame it on this stormy weather we are expriencing. or blame it on the foul mood i'm having the past few days. or blame it on my crying episodes three nights in a row. but i get comfort in listening to kyla's version of "i wish i wasn't" for no particular reason.

i wish i wasn't in love with you

so you couldn't hurt me

it just ain't fair the way you treat me

no you don't deserve me

wasting my time thinking bout you

when you ain't never gonna change

i wish i wasn't in love with you

so i wouldn't feel this way

bitchy post # 003

i would like to applaud you for having the nerve to call me and pretend that nothing happened. you pretending that you didn't hurt me and that everything is ok between us. you didn't even bother to apologize for your mistakes. as i said before, go find somebody else who would be clueless enough to help you out because it would not be me anymore.

so i guess once an a**hole, ALWAYS an a**hole!!! 'nuff said.

this and that

the night (or early morning) i was busy partying, my brazil was clobbered by france at the world cup. huhuhuhuhu. :( portugal kicked england's butt too. anything can really happen in the world cup. that's why it is one of the greatest shows on earth.

i know that "superman returns" is a big thing but having it shown in all greenbelt 3 cinemas is a stretch. come on! not everyone is dying to see it. you should have at least given moviegoers a choice. like one or two cinemas that doesn't feature "superman returns".

as we entered rob gale yesterday, the guard told us that tsinelas or flip flops are not allowed the next time we go there. i asked the guard "why?" and she can't even give me a coherent answer. so there are a few things i can do about it. get into an arguement with guards every time i enter. or wear shoes when i go malling in rob gale. or not go to rob gale anymore once the admin decides to ban tsinelas or flip flops at the mall.

i ditched jose cuervo as my bestfriend a few years ago. but i found a new "bf" last saturday... smirnoff! :D

the "gods" have been ranting to me separately about their workload. uhuh. but i can tell that theirs can be consider as "easy reading" compared to my TONS of to-do's everyday.

uaap 69th season is about to kick-off on july 8 without la salle in the line-up of schools. it could still be an interesting season even without the green archers. ;)