the cheesy post

read at your own risk.

Dear Edward,

Hello b! And welcome to my blog. Hehehe. I know that you were a bit disappointed or even hurt when I refused to give you my new blog address. I kept telling you that it is my personal space and I don’t really see the need for you to see it. But then again, I realized that you never did spy on my old blogs. Yes, you visited them from time to time but you didn’t really invade my privacy. I’m sorry for not giving it to you earlier.

There were instances in the past that I wasn’t really the “ideal” girlfriend. I was stubborn and hard-headed. But you know that already. As nanay told you early on our relationship, I’m not an easy girl to deal with. So thank you for being sssoooo patient with me. People just don’t have any idea how patient you are with all my mood swings and multiple personalities.

Our spat early on this year was really scary. I was about to give up. And I thought that breaking up was the only way to straighten things out. I was preparing myself for the worse case scenario which was losing you for good. But God has His own way of solving problems. He showed us that what we have is something that other people still wish of having. And I guess, you never did let go of me. You loved me even at the toughest times. You loved me even if you were hurting. You were strong for the both of us. And from that day on I was 200% sure that you were really the one I am going to spend the rest of my life with. You were the one that God has molded to be my partner in life.

Thank you for believing in me and in our relationship. We both know that there will still be bumpy roads ahead for us but I know that we will be able to survive it. Because we will continue to fight and protect this wonderful four-year relationship.

I was so used to taking care of everyone else. There are even times when I feel so unappreciated. I’m so thankful that you are in my life to take care of me…as in really take care of me. It’s nice to know that I am being taken cared of.

There are a lot of things I should thank you for. And this space wouldn’t really be enough. So here are some of my thank-you’s.

Thank you for loving me more and more each day. Thank you for always brightening up my day. Thank you for not being the typical guy who’s so into video games because you are always able to give me your undivided attention (peace friends! Hehehe). Thank you for watching basketball with me and sincerely enjoying it. Thank you for making me watch my favorite TV shows and waiting for it to be over before you call at home. Thank you for making me have a lot of crushes and being cool about it.

Thank you for being selfish (you know what this means. Hahaha). Thank you for being paranoid about my safety. And thank you for being the only person who can make me shut up.

I love you so much!

"I see beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
You’ve touched my heart so deeply
And I can’t thank God enough
For all the beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
Everything is just so wonderful
Every little thing is just so beautiful
When I spend it with you"– Beautiful Days, Kyla

Love,
Jen

*photos courtesy of fotosearch

high on happy pills

i’m bursting with so much happiness and love!!!

happy, happy!!!

joy, joy!!!

here's a hug for everyone ---> *hhhhhuuuuugggggggg* !!!

season 3, episode 4

"you deserve to be happy. you deserve someone who will take care of you. you deserve someone who will not hurt you. he’s the better guy. i’m walking away."

"so, what time does visiting hours start in the morning?"
"you shouldn’t do that."
"it’s ok, really."
"no, you shouldn’t do that."
"so it’s _______. can i ask why?"
"you are a wonderful person. you are an amazing person. you are even the better the guy. but..."
"he’s the one."
"i’m sorry. i wish he wasn’t. but he is."
"you know he’s gonna hurt you again...and if he does hurt you again, i won’t be here anymore... be careful meredith."

it's a must-see episode. don't forget to arm yourself with kleenex.

sshhh!

i'm really good at keeping secrets. my friends can attest to that. but sometimes, it's hard keeping a secret especially when it's really worth sharing with the rest of the world. sigh! my hands are tied and my lips are sealed. i promised not to tell a soul. this is the downside.

so for now, this is the only thing i can do... be quiet and be still.

(note to self: gosh jen! you're actually growing up. hahaha.)

cool off

everybody knows how much i love and adore you. but i think that this is the right time to take things slow. i have to keep my distance from you. this is a hard decision and it would be really tough for me. i will avoid you at all cost because it is the right thing to do for now. i won’t say goodbye because i believe that it won’t be long before we will be reunited. we will be together again once i get to secure my future and the “plan” is in place.

thank you for being with me on my out-of-town trips. thank you for spending a whole day with me shopping or just window shopping. thank you for always making me feel and look pretty. thank you for always being reliable. you always made me feel comfortable and secure. thank you for all the wonderful memories we shared together.

thank you for the three amazing years and the 12 beautiful pairs…

how bitter & arrogant can you get

"win or lose, it's the school we choose."

this is what you can come up with after losing the championship which you predicted & bragged to be in the bag early on the eliminations?! talk about being a good sport?! tsk. tsk.