craving

i want some spicy tuyo from cafe bola partnered with big chill's avocado bliss! mmmmm.... yummy!!!

a really bad day

(an incoherent post)

i don't like disappointing people and, most especially, disappointing myself. i keep replaying everything in my head. i probably should have done this, should have done that to save it. but sometimes there are things beyond your control... no matter how exprienced you are in such department.

if i am to be blamed for this, i'll accept it. because i probably deserve it. and i hate myself right now. i feel that it's somehow my fault that it was lost. i know i have given it my best but i guess, my best wasn't good enough for them. but seriously, i don't know what more i could have done. i have given it my all.

i think it's also unfair to be judged solely on that "mishap" considering the rest of the things were done with flying colors. there's nothing else we can do. that's how they do things at the other side of the fence. we just have to accept it and face reality. and i don't really feel good about it.

highlight of the week

getting a press release approved by a specific government agency after 25 years?!!!!!? the 25 years is stretching it a bit but for all of you who have experienced the bureaucracy would know what i mean.

the thing is, i couldn't assert myself too much or pressure them to have the story approved. because i don't want to piss them off and delay the approval longer. it also doesn't help if they want to work in a turtle's pace. plus, the government agency is a client of my client and i don't want to get the ire of my client.

so for the last 2-3 weeks, i had to be really patient and nice to the said government agency. and yesterday, they finally decided to approve the story just in the nick of time. thus, making my client really happy.

if my client is happy, then i'm happy.

wedding vow to beat

from Grey's Anatomy Season 3 finale

PRESTON: "Cristina, I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there, in sickness and in health. I could say till death do us part. But I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I am steady. I'm a heart man. Take 'em apart, put 'em back together, hold them in my hands. So this, I am sure. You are my partner. My lover. My very best friend. My heart. My heart beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you... me."

letting out some steam

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final four stage is set!

march madness isn't called as such for nothing. there are no "cinderellas" this year because all four teams deserve to be in the semis. march madness is really going to end with a bang! coz the big boys are coming out to play...

ohio state vs. georgetown

florida vs. ucla

now, place your bets... see how tough guys play with finesse ... and watch college ball at its finest.

in a previous lifetime...

rachael yamagata probably had me in mind when she wrote this line in her song, "meet me by the water":

please don't leave me standing with my heart in my hand. i can't last here. i'm breaking down.

hehehe. :)

to my "person"

remember that bumpy roads lead to very smooth highways and exciting joyrides. and may it be bumpy road or smooth highway, i will be your co-pilot or even the backseat driver that you need. i can even take the steering wheel and drive for you (yun nga lang wala akong driver's license. hehehe).

at hindi lang si san miguel beer ang kakampi mo. the "j" friend club mandaluyong chapter will always be here for you. even if you are "drugs" or not. hahaha.

soon enough, everything will be ok and you will be back to your old self. may it be the shiny happy person or your dark cynical self. either way, you are my person... and i am your person.

i love you... and remember that anything that doesn't kill you, makes you a better person.

*photo courtesy of fotosearch.com

summer '07

it's starting to feel like i'm inside a sauna in my room at night. this is one sure sign that summer is just around the corner. it's time to rummage my closet and bring out the bikinis! it's time to hit the beach and have some fun in the sun. and it's time to have that perfect tan!

and just maybe, it's about time i learn how to swim! ;)

THE (wedding/theme) SONG

"Feels Like Home"

by: Chantal Kreviazuk (Dawson's Creek soundtrack)

Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

at the end of each day,

all i've got is you... and God.

thank you for being my rock.

dear God,

i'm scared for tomorrow. really, really freakin' scared. as i told a friend i think im going to get sick just thinking about that thing tomorrow. You know how much i want it because that would be my ticket to "freedom" so to speak. just help me get through it with flying colors...uhm, no... just help me get through it without making a fool out of myself.

i'm going there blind but with complete faith in You. beacuse i know that You will be the ultimate judge on what direction my life should take. but God, just please give me enough courage and self-confidence for it. please.

amen.

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i'm not perfect...like the rest of the world.

so, deal with it.

starting 2007 on a sour note

you thought wedding announcements should be a reason for celebration especially from people you think are very close to your heart. but certain people wouldn't react the way you want them to because the cat is out of the bag. they never really liked you. and since this ain't a perfect world and a perfect life, you just have to deal with it.

you are scared enough starting a new chapter in life and it doesn't help when people tell you to do things which is completely different from your faith. there are certain things that can't be compromised. over your dead body as you would put it.

tougher times are still to come. as the days and months pass by, the pressure will continue to build up. the only thing to do is hang on and believe that you can surpass it. remember that he loves you so much and nothing will change it.

as he assured you, by hook or by crook a wedding will take place in september 2007... or earlier.

holiday shout out

Happy Holidays to everyone!!!! =)

Always remember the TRUE meaning of the season and celebration. See y'all in 2007. And i'm so looking forward to 2007. Cheers to everyone! Mwah!

back from the grave

i'm alive & kicking once again. it feels great to be back talking about nothing and pretending to write about something. hahaha.

it's just two weeks before christmas and i still don't feel "christmas-y". it's probably because edward's still in china and we haven't done our holiday gift shopping. and Lord, i hope his trip doesn't get extended for another week or so. i dont want him spending this christmas away from me and his family. and i miss him terribly!!! :-(

i had my eyes checked yesterday and got a new pair of glasses since my eyesight is getting worse. i think it's payback from all those years of reading in not-so properly lit areas & reading inside moving vehicles. should have listened to my mom more.

while shopping for havaianas that i plan to give mikey (my pseudo godchild), i ended up buying a pair of my own. sigh! i know! i couldn't help it. they were so beautiful and begging me to buy them. yeah, i'm just making excuses for myself. i'm praying that the next time i hunt for mikey's havs i wouldn't be tempted to buy another pair for myself.

i got bored with my curly hair so i'm back to shiny straight black hair. oh, and with a little bangs too. ;-)

is 2007 a year for weddings? well for my social circle that is. i already know a handful of people who are tying the knot in 2007 which of course includes edward & me. but my excitement escalated when i found out that one of my closest friends is also getting married next year to her long time boo. it will definitely be a fun year.

going awol

i'm taking some break from the blogging world. i need to focus, think and understand things. i would like to learn more about myself with the changes about to happen in my oh-so boring life. a lot of things scare me these days and i don't think it would be good for me to blog it here or even tell the world about it. sometimes, you should be quiet and be still.

to my friends who really want to get in touch with me during my blog hiatus, you know where to find or reach me.

i might take a peek from time to time. i'm taking time off from blogging but it doesn't mean i'm going to go invisible in real life.

my next career: personal shopper

when the "project" is done, most of my time will be devoted to launching my new career as a personal shopper. this can really be exciting even if it entails a lot of research, interviews and running around. but who cares. shopping is one of the things i'm really good at. and it's also one of the things that i wouldn't be bored doing. imagine, all you need to do is shop and you get paid for it too. coolness. :)

so if you are interested to test my shopping powers, just holler. spread the word. i might be the next best personal shopper in town. hahahaha.

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How to Become a Personal Shopper (taken from www.ehow.com)

Love to shop? Turn that passion into a money-making venture and become a personal shopper. Yes, you can get paid to shop for others!

STEP 1: Get some experience. Retail sales will give you a great foundation. You'll be in touch with products, trends, brand names and price points.

STEP 2: Do your research. If you want to dress someone else, you must know a lot about that person's profession, including what they need to wear and what styles and colors are acceptable. Talk to store buyers and flip through the monthly fashion magazines to keep up with trends and hot new labels.

STEP 3: Take notes and build a library. Log everything you did and didn't sell to a client, why you chose it and how the client did with the purchase. Analyze the trends and develop your own ideas about how they can be worked into a man's or a woman's wardrobe.

STEP 4: Make the transition from being a popular sales associate at a department store to being a personal shopper. Show store management the amount of revenue you've brought in over a year and your thick address book of active clients. Get written testimonials from your regulars about how much they value your services and trust your skills.

STEP 5: Go solo by organizing your skills and marketing your portfolio. Start with colleagues from your previous profession, friends, relatives and neighbors. Target busy men and women whose professions dictate a certain dress and leave them little time or energy to get their closets together.

STEP 6: Get on the phone or send e-mail. Whether you're employed by a store or working solo, your clients are busy - that's why they've enlisted your services. It's up to you to tell them all about the latest styles that complement their wardrobes.

Tips & Warnings
Know your client's budget and respect it. Always offer your clients a variety of options, but avoid exceeding their budgets. You'll establish a bond and trust with your clients and keep them coming back for your services.

Diversify your offerings. Give your clients the option of using your services for corporate or family gift giving. Target Christmas well in advance, and over time become acquainted with the special dates your clients and their relatives may celebrate: anniversaries, birthdays, graduations and so forth.

quotable quote

callie (to george) : don't chase me anymore... unless you're ready to catch me.

the cheesy post

read at your own risk.

Dear Edward,

Hello b! And welcome to my blog. Hehehe. I know that you were a bit disappointed or even hurt when I refused to give you my new blog address. I kept telling you that it is my personal space and I don’t really see the need for you to see it. But then again, I realized that you never did spy on my old blogs. Yes, you visited them from time to time but you didn’t really invade my privacy. I’m sorry for not giving it to you earlier.

There were instances in the past that I wasn’t really the “ideal” girlfriend. I was stubborn and hard-headed. But you know that already. As nanay told you early on our relationship, I’m not an easy girl to deal with. So thank you for being sssoooo patient with me. People just don’t have any idea how patient you are with all my mood swings and multiple personalities.

Our spat early on this year was really scary. I was about to give up. And I thought that breaking up was the only way to straighten things out. I was preparing myself for the worse case scenario which was losing you for good. But God has His own way of solving problems. He showed us that what we have is something that other people still wish of having. And I guess, you never did let go of me. You loved me even at the toughest times. You loved me even if you were hurting. You were strong for the both of us. And from that day on I was 200% sure that you were really the one I am going to spend the rest of my life with. You were the one that God has molded to be my partner in life.

Thank you for believing in me and in our relationship. We both know that there will still be bumpy roads ahead for us but I know that we will be able to survive it. Because we will continue to fight and protect this wonderful four-year relationship.

I was so used to taking care of everyone else. There are even times when I feel so unappreciated. I’m so thankful that you are in my life to take care of me…as in really take care of me. It’s nice to know that I am being taken cared of.

There are a lot of things I should thank you for. And this space wouldn’t really be enough. So here are some of my thank-you’s.

Thank you for loving me more and more each day. Thank you for always brightening up my day. Thank you for not being the typical guy who’s so into video games because you are always able to give me your undivided attention (peace friends! Hehehe). Thank you for watching basketball with me and sincerely enjoying it. Thank you for making me watch my favorite TV shows and waiting for it to be over before you call at home. Thank you for making me have a lot of crushes and being cool about it.

Thank you for being selfish (you know what this means. Hahaha). Thank you for being paranoid about my safety. And thank you for being the only person who can make me shut up.

I love you so much!

"I see beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
You’ve touched my heart so deeply
And I can’t thank God enough
For all the beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
Everything is just so wonderful
Every little thing is just so beautiful
When I spend it with you"– Beautiful Days, Kyla

Love,
Jen

*photos courtesy of fotosearch